Seeking Light

Motherhood has opened me up to being a whole new person.  It’s a title change, yes.  But also a new mental state, having different priorities than ever before, having another heart outside of your body.

Since having my daughter six months ago, I have done some soul searching.  I have changed a lot in that time.  I have become more driven to better myself through nutrition and exercise.  I have re-committed to my coaching business, helping other women do the same, and through all of it I have wondered to myself where the momentum comes from when I commit to making a change.

It dawned on me (no pun intended) that my biggest changes occur when I envision my life in a lighter state.  When I see myself being lighter physically I revisit my nutrition and exercise.  When I see my space being more clear, I purge a closet, or try to lighten my footprint by implementing a zero waste policy.  I start composting.  When I feel depressed or heavy with anxiety I do some mindset work, I start meditating, I commit to the miracle morning.

In the past I also sought this light, but went after it in unhealthy ways.  Developing anorexia, and seeking the image of lightness through material goods and shopping for that feeling without ever finding it.  It seems so obvious to me now...All of those tactics were making me heavier and less fulfilled.

Motherhood this time around exposed this truth to me because I didn’t deal with the trials of actually becoming a mom.  What I mean is that I knew what was in store, I had long been touched out, and I didn’t have an outside job to return to.  Being a mom in itself is heavy.  You are constantly carrying another human, and the weight of that other heart is enough.  Lightening up in other ways was necessary for me.  It has become clear that it’s serving me well.  I think we all wish to be light in one way or another.  My mission is to help you find that feeling.